I'm in College now. I officially started my classes on Tuesday Aug 16th. I've noticed that everyone has changed since College began. I think I feel different too.

I am not as social as I was at LSMSA. And I know I wasn't that social at LSMSA, but here my God, its like a different world. I am of the few nerds here. It is the thing to know Japanese here as your second language. That or Spanish. I don't feel so much like one of the kind but I still don't fit in completely.

For the first couple of days, I felt lost and wondered why I came here in the first place. All of my surroundings were majestic but I felt like I was in a glass preventing me from getting close with these classmates. I contemplated the fact that I will be with these people for the next four years. I've been living in fear lately. Shortly before Soka, I was in Canada living the life I guess you could say. I smoked every other day and drank more frequently than I ever did. By each day I felt less like myself but I was in bliss. It was all so surreal. Now that I'm in College, I really want to make up for any loss of my brain cells. Everyone was so nice and the Buddhists here were either real hardcore or really hypocritical. I already knew about hypocritical Buddhists so that wasn't a surprise to me. Even the hypocritical Buddhists aren't assholes, they are just like regular college students.
After a while it got better though. My roomate and I connect on a great level. She is from the Republic of Korea. She is really naiive about the American culture, she was so shocked about things that I took for granted in the States. I think this College experience will be a growing experience.

Before Canada I also went to Japan, Houstan and my dad's family reunion in between the trips. I've learned that my father's (maternal) great great grand father's name was Juan Y Bagur Carreras from Spain. So I really do have spanish decent on both of my dad's side of the family.